Recent thoughts

The feeling when you finally lost trust on somebody is quite bewildering and depressing to some extent. I think I had this moment just recently, when I fit in different pieces of tiny puzzles and finally saw a big picture of how everything went for somebody and how I was so nearsighted, unaware of what was going on. Although I'm happy I at least realized that, the fact that I couldn't see it until now is kind of pathetic. After so many hours of conversation and chatting, I had gained enough information to get some insight of how that person is, and how she maintains her complicated relationships. However, I was just one ignorant who didn't even understand what situation I was in. Thankfully, my friend provided a missing piece of puzzle and I saw that I was one of the 'fishes' she was carrying (this is a korean term, so there's no proper translation of it). I maybe a little bit upset because of this, but still, I could think it as an opportunity to put down a burden and time to take a step forward, since I had been very unorganized and undisciplined for awhile.